So not feeling it today... | fyreyvixxxen's Blog

It's one of those "blah" days... where everything is just blah... There is nothing really to smile about and if I think too hard on anything, I feel as though I'll burst into tears. I know where I'm headed with this and I just hope I can make a turn-around soon because the darkness is trying to creep back in and I don't want to let it... things have been so good... I have managed to maintain an even keel for months now and I really thought I had made it that way; that somehow after all this time, I had gained some control over the darkness.

I tell myself maybe it's just the weather... it's getting so cold. Maybe it's the coming holidays...another thanksgiving/birthday/christmas ALONE... that'll bring the depression crashing back in. Maybe it's the mounting stress at work... lets take our busiest time ever and add some major system revisions during year-end, that's a great way to go about it. Maybe I'm finally in love, finally found someone I want to spend time with and I can't have him...

Eh, whatever... I'll just crank up the tunes and get back to work... all this crap in my head will sort itself out eventually. In the meantime, I need to get busy acting like nothing is wrong... not that anybody at all would notice if something was wrong.

This Blog Entry's Comment Board
There are no comments on this post yet, be the first to leave one!
Your Comment:

Previous Posts
Day 81, posted November 29th, 2012
Holidays, posted November 18th, 2012
Day 68, posted November 16th, 2012
Restless, posted November 12th, 2012
A Night In, posted November 10th, 2012
Back to Good, posted November 9th, 2012
Mine, posted November 9th, 2012
Judgement, posted November 8th, 2012
Lonely or just alone?, posted November 8th, 2012
So not feeling it today..., posted November 7th, 2012
Haunted House, posted November 6th, 2012
Focus, Dearheart..., posted November 6th, 2012
All Quiet in the Batcave, posted November 5th, 2012
Say What You Will..., posted November 2nd, 2012
Silence, posted November 1st, 2012
What made you think that was okay?, posted October 31st, 2012
Rejection Fiesta, posted October 30th, 2012
Sometimes They Come Back, posted October 30th, 2012
The Sweet Green Grass, posted October 29th, 2012
Day 50, posted October 29th, 2012
Breaking it down, posted October 27th, 2012
Day 47, posted October 26th, 2012

Here are some friends' blogs...

How to Embed Photos in your Blog Embed Photos How to Embed Videos in your Blog Embed Videos