Holidays | fyreyvixxxen's Blog

The holidays are coming... what a nightmare!

I despise this time of year. I have to figure out how to scrape together enough money to make it a good Christmas for the kids... and that in and of itself is a difficult task (this year has been rough... and my savings is gone) enough to dampen my spirits immensely.

And dating a married man... the holidays are super sucky. Even worse than being alone is wanting to be with someone who's loyalties lie elsewhere.

Meanwhile... my birthday is right in the mix of it all. I HATE my birthday. I'm another year older... big woop, that doesn't bother me so much anymore... what really ticks me off is that it's just another day... where I'm reminded of my aloneness in the world. Can't I just skip the next month and a half? Just fast forward a bit... that'd be nice.